How many people are eating ice cream?

Many times before sharing, I think about the artists of the past, and how they never really had this issue of choosing what to share. They just made shit, enjoyed it. Hoped to make a bit of cash. Mostly they just did it. I think about them, because like now; tried at least five different titles, pondered angles of other blogs. Mostly thought about every which way, of not to be displayed. Became overly judgemental. Disgusted. Got angry. Not the Croatian lady anger, that admired, expected passion. That is sexy, tolerated. Not like that, no, just quietly, where no one could see it. Passively.

How much is shared, how much is seen. What’s the point.

I don’t want to be considered some travelling blogger, or the artist who is discovering herself through last name illusionary heritage. ‘Being Croatian is cool man’, because secretly everyone categorises humanity into delicacies.  Undeniably, the women here are gorgeous, there is no doubt. When I look at them, I think, ‘yes you are of good stock’ and feel into my not-really-here-ness. My stock-less-ness. Non-relative. Soup. Some people near the ocean could be mistaken for rocks. Crocs are dolphins.


Doubt coupled with absurdity equals lost.

Wondering how Louise Hay struck a deal with Jana; the leading water bottle manufacturer, here on this exotic landmass. Affirmations translated from Croatian, to English.

I no longer wait to be perfect in order to love myself. I accept myself exactly as I am right here and now.

Good one, Hay. Dobro!

carpal tunnel

…and why does it scare me?

28 responses to How many people are eating ice cream?

  1. I’m sure artists of the past made things that they thought was complete crap that they either destroyed or kept locked in their basements.

    • Jessie Martinovic – Author

      yeah. Apparently Tuner used one of his paintings as a doggy door or something, I heard somewhere hah!

    • Jessie Martinovic – Author

      yeah, I don’t aspire to be psychopathic. Have you known many/any psychopaths Hariod?

      • Jessie Martinovic – Author

        Nah, there has been issues with getting most comments and stuff since the time warp. I’ll have a check, hopefully you’ll re-type it, haha!!

      • Probably just as well, as I was talking about a psychopath I know who’s quite well known but extremely litigious. o_O

      • Jessie Martinovic – Author

        Oh ok. I kind of understand, the word litigious is law or something. Does that make you sentence contradictory, somewhat?

        Anyway, psychopaths probably just need more b12

      • I mean ‘litigious’ in the sense that he takes recourse to the law – libel laws, mainly – very readily, and as a means of frightening people. Lawyers term such types ‘vexatious litigants’, which is a fine, lawyerly phrase if ever I heard one.

        Do you reckon psychopathy is cured with B12? The fella has one helluva shortage! Tell me what you know about this, Jessie, will you?

      • Jessie Martinovic – Author

        Vexatious litigants.

        I think, a lot of people could be relieved of certain mental states with dietary analysis. Many, many vegetarians I have spoken with seem to suffer depression, and I know personally when I stopped eating meat, fell deeply more than ever, into the abyss. Of course other things amount. Even though, I know it is so much more than all of that, and we are to feel what we create etc but still.

        Be vitamins are essential. As is everything else, seemingly.

      • Yeah, ‘vexatious litigant’ – a tasty, skewered bat, kinda phrase.

        Does not eating meat give rise to nutrient deficiencies then, B12 particularly? The psychopath I was referring to is quite a fastidious eater. He has an assistant bring him specific foods to his office at set times of the day – all on a silver platter. Bananas are part of this daily ritual. He’s very, very aggressive. He has the capacity to put on a certain charm, but when you look him straight in the eye you just disappear into a hellish void of darkness. Frightening. o_O

      • Jessie Martinovic – Author

        I am really not sure about anything, but from personal experience, have always had that drop. B1 and B2 are bananas in pajamas.

        What a scary vexatious litigant!

  2. I had this long response all set, all typed……………never mind…………..embrace the day, yep, yep. You’re good. 🙂

    • Jessie Martinovic – Author

      oh, wish I could read it. But, yes, the day has been embraced. Thank you Roberto 🙂

  3. I reckon many artists of the past set a match to their work and probably stood on the ashes rather than the flame. Anyone can see you’re not an emerging blogger but an ’emerged’ one. Hang in their with your creativity. Hang in there x

    • Jessie Martinovic – Author

      sometimes getting rid of it all, is ultimately liberating. Your compliments are always uplifting me Shey, thank you.

      Hanging in, is the only option when it is your breath 🙂

      • Listen, sometimes it is uplifting to just get rid of it all. You are right. But then…sometimes all comes back like that thing in the Halloween film. It doesn’t matter how you rationalize anything, there it is with the knife and you just know you are going back for more xx

      • Jessie Martinovic – Author

        Yeah it is true. I mean, why else would I get excited in supermarkets, when there is wonderful nature to loose oneself in. I wouldn’t be where I am now though, if I hadn’t rid myself of a lot of previous stuff. And photos, there is always photo evidence.

    • Jessie Martinovic – Author

      yes. Thanks Shey, I don’t know why shiny packaging is so appealing. I think it’s meant to be bad, ‘progression’, consumerism and all that. But it’s just so pretty like flowers, some chip packets are.

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